Good for you for telling on yourself Elisabeth x
I think sometimes we give these cravings/urges more power than they deserve. Sometimes it catches me of guard and I almost can't believe I actually want to drink. But then I have to remind myself that it's kinda my natural default setting. I'm hoping it won't always be but having that urge should't be surprising. But if we allow it to freak us out or focus on it too much it can become bigger. I always find the ignore it and it'll go away approach works for me. If I even allow myself to consider drinking as an option then the craving gets worse.