It doesn't need to be a fight. Don't fight with it. Just decide no and go home.
I don't know what to say jkb I know one one hand you want to drink, on the other you dont. One hand is your AV, the other is you.
It's a battle.
None of us can make the decision for you though.
I believe that if you truly wanted to drink then you wouldn't be posting. Your I don't want to drink hand is heavier on the scales than you're AV wanting to drink. I don't have the answers though.