Originally Posted by
MyTimeNow 
So I've done it.
I've made my Big Plan. Out of the blue, just now.
Yes I had kind of done it before, but there was still the ambivalence, the - what's different this time? the self doubt.
2 weeks sober today (but who's counting
) lot's of positive things and help for my son on the horizon. I've picked up DD from nursery and just danced to MC Hammer with her with the biggest smile on my face.
I feel confident and positive. Best of all, I really don't feel that afraid any more.
Haha and in the time it took to write and re-read that, I've just gotten the first.. are you sure about this?
Yes.
So true... my AV is acting up right now. However, I am a bit more confident that I can deal with it and that makes a HUGE difference. It's saying..."silly big plan just make a new one later. Your not really ready. Blah, blah, blah." My response, "no". I am amazed it quieted down some. However, this is the start of my "weekend" so it is predictably starting in on me a few hours before I leave work.