Wow thank you for the quick reply I have really been beside myself. Yes, i was under the impression AA=AlAnon=Alcoholics Anonymous. I will definitely check into each one of these that you mentioned. I'll report back what I find. I was told AA 'changes the way you see so that you think differently' where as my current therapy 'changes the way you think so that you see differently; but I'm not really sure what that means. I have had glimpses of recovery and am scared and saddened at my weakness right now. Thank you so much! I'll let you know in the next few days what I've found from what you suggested.