Thank you Thumper. This is exactly what my sponsor says most times. She said she feels that I'm closer to leaving than I ever was before, but that I don't have to make any decisions right now and that it's OK to just stop and rest where I am.
I am still establishing what I need, and deciphering the difference between my wants and needs at the same time. I am getting closer to finding those answers the more I work my program.