Good on you jk! We're both in the same boat then. And I liked soberlicious' reminder from the book - I'd been re-reading the lapses, relapses and other nonsense chapter just a little while ago today too. And now actually understand (at least mentally - though the old bod can play nasty tricks) why those slogans like HALT....and indeed the whole 'relapse prevention' notion is in itself leaving us wide open to AV, through fear.
I've been operating on fear for a great deal of this past twelve months after rehab (where I learned all that stuff, studied it even), and .... ahem, hope I won't offend anyone... the fear thing was and is still very much an underlying theme in a certain prominent 'recovery programme'.
If I may gloss a bit: it's like 'the fear that dare not speak its name'. Even as I write about it, I can feel that niggle of 'relapse anxiety' and ffs, I'm only in late arvo of today's various Beast Attacks :-)
By jeepers, we can do this - or should I say we 'will' do this!