Wow, thank you so much to all of you. I just caught up with the thread and am so glad for all the insight. MTN I fully understand what you are saying. The internal chatter is a bit endless for me as well right now. I cannot control what is says only how I am dealing with it. Last night it was attempting to make me crazy with the "you can't just quit thought" and "well when you mess up..." I just kept thinking how "overly confident" my beast is and that it was annoying at best. So thanks again everyone I am reading closely.