I'm an agnostic sober 21 years in AA, my sponsor is an atheist with 27 years. The book Alcoholics Anonymous says it's a higher power and we can define it as we wish. In the beginning my HP was a tree, later it became GOD = group of drunks. Or, God = good orderly direction. The point is my HP isn't me! It's the action we take, the act of praying, turning our will over and asking for help. My best thinking kept me drunk and obsessed with a distrous relationship. Trust me, my higher power does much better!