Originally Posted by
ShootingStar1 
Liz, having followed your story since I joined SR in June, or whenever you first posted, I think you're making incredible progress. You've gone from outright defense of your AH and irritation with those who suggested he might be at fault, to less defense of him and more just denial, to perceiving the chinks in that armor.
Now you are really looking at yourself as an individual, not just "in the context" of what your AH thinks. And as you open up about the terrible childhood abuse you suffered, you are making the linkages to how that abuse shaped your sense of self, and how that made your AH's bad treatment of you seem so familiar that it seemed appropriate and usual.
I think your progress is nothing less than marvelous, and you should be very very proud of yourself.
You had a career, as I remember, as a stockbroker, so you have lots of marketable knowledge and skills, and when you are ready emotionally, I think you'll be able to put the whole package together in a new exciting and very fulfilling way. Keep on digging, I think you're hitting paydirt!
ShootingStar1
Can I give you a virtual hug? Thanks so much, ((ShootingStar))!
Yes, I was a broker and worked in financial services and I then worked part time teaching aerobics and eventually yoga while homeschooling during the day.
I am almost at the point where I wish AH would just do something SO bad that I have no choice to walk away. It's the constant up and down and positive then negative that gets me. He always seemed so willing to change using his words and attitude, I soooo much wanted to believe him. I guess I'm finally tired of believing him. I'm really praying that I'm ready to hold some boundaries and to ask him to earn his way back into my trust circle(for lack of a better term).