Thank you all for your very kind words. All of your support continues to inspire and lift me up.
I had not seen or spoken to XA in almost 19 months. The instant return of all those overpowering emotions and feelings really threw me for a loop. Detach with love, means different things to different people. My "out of sight, out of mind" mentality is a band-aid, and as with any wound, requires daily care.
My two weeks of the grandkids begins today. And somebody is turning 5 this weekend. And as she so simply stated, "turning 5 is a very big deal gram, we should have cake, and ice cream, And balloons , that's all I want" I do believe a 5 year may be showing me the way here........... I have to keep it real simple for now. ((((((hugs ))))))