Sad I just read through some of your threads and I see that DV has been a part of your relationship for awhile.
I also read where you recently posted that you are afraid to leave the relationship because you fear what he will do based on reading about DV and what can happen when you try to get out of it.
You are not a prisoner of this man - this is why it is so important to call the DV hotline. They will guide you in how to protect yourself and provide you with contacts of shelters if need be. There are people out there that dedicate their lives to helping and protecting people in your situation. They care about you and we do too....
I know I don't walk in your shoes - but I just gotta tell you if it were me his a** would be in jail. You don't deserve this. You are worth more than to be subject to the physical abuse of a drunk.