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I dont even know what to say really. I want to scream, cry, run but here I sat numb. The tears will come soon Im sure. I knew it was going to happen again, I cant say Im shocked yet here I sat wondering how I am going to handle this in the morning when he wakes up apoligizing and I wake up with puffy eyes from crying and bruises. I told him this was it but it wont matter to him. He will pretend to not remember or maybe he really wont but I will. I have made such progress and I feel like it was all just ripped out from under me.