Hi SR,
I'm in mixed up place in my head. My good friend wants me to go out with her and the girls this weekend for some drinks. I know realistically I can't go and have a few drinks and not take it too far and get drunk. I also know if I go I don't want to not drink.
The real issue is this is a person I consider to be my best friend but I have never been able to open up and tell her I'm an alcoholic. There are only two people I have been able to say that to, my sister and my boyfriend, I drink at home and most people don't realize its a probblem.
My friend and I used to drink alot in our twenties together, she knows I drink too much. She also knows my siblings are alcoholics. She probably has put two and two together but I have never been able to tell her and I should have long ago.
She's always bashing me because I don't go out with them but I know its all about the drinks and can't trust myself, so I don't go. She is probably waiting for my excuse but I need to just tell her. I know she loves me either way.
I wish I had some more guts but it is so hard to admit I'm an alhoholic. Its just hard to say it out loud. I know my answer. Can someone give me some courage. I just want to cry thinking about it!!
