Originally Posted by
jazzfish 
Am I building alcoholism into a giant monster that will be difficult to defeat and require long-term (life-long) vigilance and struggle?
I know I did the above for a long, long time but I realize, for me, I became fear based and made my drinking into a lifelong struggle and not what it should have been, for me, which was making the permanent decision to never drink again and never change my mind. Once that was in place the switch flipped and I literally felt that shift.