Originally Posted by
lettinggoagain 
he took advantage of my weakness and I hate him for that. he completely disrespected me and that is something i will never forgive him for. i just cant. i know its his diseased mind and that makes me able to let it go now that i am no longer with him...but i will tell you that during that time (of being with him) i began to feel wow maybe i am insecure in other ways too...i started really doubting myself. NOT ANYMORE!
lettinggoagain i had the same experience with my ex addict. how can i forgive him for all the mean words..i know that it is like a disease but i cannot forgive him. my life teaches me to be responsible for my actions. who forgives me for my mistakes? sometimes I wish him to go through the same...but then he pays every day,everytime he gets a line...