Wow there, who says you need to take drugs to change your mood? I have a lifetimes experience of running away from me and alcohol was only a small part of it. Music! There is nothing better to change your mood. There's a reason spielberg uses schmaltzy music in his films. There is nothing better for pulling on the emotional heartstrings. There is also plenty of angry/happy/dramatic music too. Also, what colour is your hair today? If you wanna feel different why not dye it Blue? I should link in photo's of me with every different hair colour under the sun. Getting sober I have decided to let it be it's natural colour to symbolise accepting myself. But if I felt like I wanted to get away from me it'd be better to pick up a bottle of bleach rather than a drink or drug. If you wanna feel different why don't you do something that you've never done before (something, and I can't stress this enough, that is not a mind altering substance), do something that is totally not you x