is sitting on the table, unguarded, not locked up in the car. my keys aren't hidden, my money is in my wallet instead of being hidden in books, or the Tampax box. It is nice isn't it? to have that worry taken away. My jewelry box comes home from my friends house tomorrow. No more worries about my earrings getting hocked. and ABF is clean, and chose to do so. today was hard. Its the end of the 3rd day going No Contact. it's hard, but Im glad that the rehab enforces it. Im glad. our lives were so enmeshed. Im just trying to count my blessings and stop the stinkin thinkin. I find myself future trippin. "will he write? will he really stay clean this time? shouldn't I be glad that he reached out for help? does he love me? or use me? He wants me to write and visit.... undecided there. I can't wait to get my butt back to Nar anon this week. sorry for the vent
thanks for listening