((Maybe21)) - Welcome to SR! Never had a problem with codeine, but seriously abused other opiates and became a crack addict before finally choosing recovery.
Is it "normal" to choose your DOC (drug of choice) over just about anything? IME, yep. Did it, not proud of it, but I did. Does it mean that's the way you will ALWAYS be? Nope.
I'm going on 6 years in recovery. Though I can remember the "got to get MORE" feeling, it's also like I can't believe I was that person? Didn't get here in a day, a week or even a month. Took time, and a lot of support, a lot of which I got from here.
Soooo, what may be "normal" today, doesn't have to be normal forever....does that make sense? Hard to describe the change in words, but it's darned sure worth a try going through
Hugs and prayers,
Amy