LMN!!!!! You rock girl!
It took me SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO long to even begin to get any relief from this disease of self that I have. I worked and worked the steps, spent hours in the chairs, worked with a sponsor. And yet still I suffered and struggled so. Many times it felt like it was a program that was going to work for everyone else but me.
But then - one day the miracle happened. I began to work my program for me and not because I was involved with someone that was an addict. I began to realize that the only recovery that was my business was my own.
I'm blown away by your post and it's an inspiration. And I'm glad that your husband is having a renewed committment to his recovery. A couple that are both working a recovery program is a beautiful thing.