So it's 2 days later and I'm still feeling really good! I don't know what finally clicked inside me but I am happy it did. I think all this reading I have been doing is finally working. I am finally realizing that instead of worrying about him and if there is a future for us, I need to just live in the moment and worry about getting myself better. I know I have some things that need to be changed and im not 100% better but at least I'm going in the right direction...and I'm excited to start this process. It's a new year and a new beginning. 2012 was hell for me and I will not let that be the same for 2013! Thank you to everyone for your words and wisdom!