I'm angry at everything to be honest. Our relationship was never this fairy tale type thing. But he is still lying ( I just posted about it) and I'm just angry and hurt. Part of me feels defeated and I want out. The other small part does not. Wen is enough enough? I ask myself that all the time. Even though he hasn't used drugs since October, he has had 2 drinking episodes which were chaotic to say the least.. That's how it feels- just like chaos. And when there isn't chaos I feel like it's just tense from the aftermath of it all.