Welcome Shelly!
It really is baffling, isn't it? I made so many promises to myself to have "one or two" only to wake up in the morning thinking "Why did I do this to myself - AGAIN?"
I'm so glad you posted. It takes courage to admit we have a problem and reach out for help. Like the others have said - it really does get better and easier as you go. It takes a while for the mental part to go away, but it will. I had a lot of cravings at first.......just take them one at a time and come here often - that's what helped me the most!:ghug3