I spent the last 2 days pouring through the forum and I got much strength from them and your previous posts which you suggested I read and because of them I have made the decision of NO CONTACT with my agf. I love her and because of that I have let her go. The relationship will destroy two of us and I believe that one of us surviving is better than none of us surviving.
Your advice, the forum advice from all over the place is with an addict is 100% NO CONTACT. As was said here it seems you regress in your self when you go back to the place he lives. Seeing him every day and such communication is confusing him and you, and I believe by travelling with him it could also send a wrong message to him? Does he not have a freind or family person that can go instead?
Follow your own advice and get strength from the gift of this forum.