I grew up in the house right next door to her and she has been my second Mom all my life. I can't lose her.
The emotion jumps right off the page. I can feel it. I'm so sorry this is happening to her and to you. So sorry...
And she needs alert, coherent me....not hung over I cant get out of my way me.
Yes she does. And beyond that...drinking is self-destructive. Hurting yourself hurts those who love you and it does not honor all they have done for you.
So my beast is making noise telling me that wine will take all these feelings away.
Of course it is. That's it's job...getdrunkgetdrunkgetdrunk. It is not a surprise that your AV would use this very difficult time to try you. It is opportunistic, and has absolutely no problem using the pain of a loved one as an excuse to drink. It's a heartless bast*rd, that's for sure. Ignore it...it can't hurt you.