Reason #1 Why I Drink and Started to Drink
To make other people and life more interesting.......
i'm scared there's not going to be many options when I'm sober. icocktail waitress at a strip club in a city vry well known for the party scene. ive got 8days sober under my belt, tonight (Wednesday) will be my record- in 15 years! (unless by Dr's orders, surgery, or antibiotics.) pathetic but true.
anyway ---
i am so used to men being more fun and more interesting when we are drinking. hate it when u first date someone, and you have morning (SOBER, LIGHTS ON, SUN STREAMING THRU THE WINDOWS) sex. :-O my mind is always in the gutter. probably because on the surface im a good girl. the anti-ho.
its gonna be a very lonely next few months (years?!?!) but its worth it because i am a raging, blackout, cant have just one drink, poetically tragic but not in a cute way , out-of-control DRUNK. the end. err, to be continued.