I grew up in an alcoholic environment so I am aware of all the traps you can fall into. Ive tried my best to not enable but I cant help it and I hate that about myself. I act as if I am the strongest and nothing affects me but truthfully I am the provoker, the rescuer and the martyr. Being all these things makes it difficult to recognize I am an enabler. The words I find most weak are enable and codependant these seem to be worse to me than alcoholic.