Just my two cents...........
She wants her cake and be able to eat it too.......
But you keep going back.........
I bet when you choose differently you will get different results.
This is so very toxic and unhealthy for you.
CRAZED SAYS
"While most will say that her actions indicate "Dude- get on with it," my craziness comes through our conversations and the 10s of hours of crying which tell another story about a terrified, guilt ridden woman that I feel really loves me. "
^^^^^^ Oh crazed this is not love^^^^^ just the ramblings of an out of control addict.
Take back your life, I would end the madness, sure it will hurt for awhile, but not compared to the yo-yo hell you have been living.
You and you alone are responsible for choices. No one else JUST YOU.