Since my first post I've contacted the member I thought I insulted, he has said not to be silly, but I don't want to make the meeting all about me by going half drunk and crying because I know that's my mums sponsors group. Tomorrow is a new start. I don't know about my job though, I have volunteered for a nightshift New Year's Eve...maybe I should just suck it up and go. It'll keep me sober at least!