anger is an illusion of control
oh god, yes it is. i feel helpless. (in aa we say we are powerless, but not helpless...and yet "helpless" is how i feel in this moment.)
and it's because i'm powerless over the decisions he makes.
only thing to do is climb back in the saddle. first things first--i need to take care of me. still waiting for an alanon member to call me back but your post calmed me down a lot. i hear the sanity in it.
thank you so much.