I know how you feel, I found a lump last weekend and decided not to tell AH, I felt that his guaranteed lack of empathy/support would hurt me more and I need to take care of myself from now on. I have waited (pins and needles ) all week for the breast screening clinic to call me with an appointment for the dr. requested ultrasound and finally found out today that I have an appointment on Monday. I know how scary this can be, but we have to take care of ourselves. Big hug and prayer for you. Let us know how it goes, I have found wonderful support from everyone here and feel their prayers giving me courage, Im sure you will also