Hi BabyJane, I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. Early sobriety is so hard. We don't have any new coping tools yet but also don't have our old one anymore, either.
I too struggle with depression and loneliness and more and think about using all the time. But I also know, more and more, that if I do go on an oxy binge, just check out for awhile, that all my problems will still be there when I'm through. Only it will be worse cuz I will have added extra shame and remorse.
So try to hang in there while everything is so tough. Keep building on your sobriety and be proud of yourself for making a month. And let the support and caring here on SR help carry you through.
Take care.