Originally Posted by free2luv26

Had an awesome meeting. Came home feeling a high that Ive never felt before. Ive had plenty of highs but nothing like this. Theres a strength in me now and motivation that I never knew I had. Ive always been a strong willed person but due to addiction I became such a weak person. I thank God Ive made it this far. Only been a few weeks since my last relapse but due to my acceptance of the program I have felt that strength coming back to me. Maybe it was always there buried underneath the drugs. I dont know. I do know I love this new feeling. In all of the times Ive gotten clean, I have not once been this sure about my sobriety. I will no longer "reward" myself by getting high because Ive been clean for a few months. My sobriety will now be my reward. The joy I see in my mothers eyes, my grandmothers eyes, and everyone else whom has stuck by me thru everything, shall be my reward. Ohh this feeling I have is amazing.