I have recently worked on some 4th step work with my sponsor & it reveal some still lingering desires for my exah to admit that he lied to himself & many people about me & my actions during our divorce ~ these are things that happened over 4 yrs ago ~
For me, I discovered that it was a part of my nature wanting people to "know" the truth ~ my sponsor reminded me that I KNOW the truth, my HP knows the truth and that's really all that matters ~
when those feelings of doubt and need of validation & justification arise to remind myself ~ I answer to no one other than my own self-worth & my HP ~
Everyone is going to believe what they want anyway ~
More will be reveal as time continues ~ Life has a funny way of revealing the truth to many things as the story is played out ~
But even if it never does ~ again YOU & YOUR HP are truly aware of your serenity, sanity and that your side of the street is safe & clean ~
Try to stay calm in those reassurances ~ it has helped me from trying to beat a "dead horse"
Peace & pink hugs to you ~