585 days today, my doc was Oxy > IV H. It sucks at first for sure. I would suggest going to some NA meetings or some sort of group just to get out of your own head for a bit and perhaps start a program. What happens a lot is you get past withdraws and a little time goes by and you "forget" about what you went through and convince yourself that just one more wont hurt anything, I have kicked before, this time wont be that bad. Working a program of recovery will absolutely help you stay clean.
Getting clean is easy, staying clean is not. Stick around here too.