I fall into that category of folks that are, as the Big Book says " unable, at certain times, to bring into our consciousness with sufficient force the memory of the suffering and humiliation of even a week or a month ago."
I would always get a few days past my last drink and then suddenly things didnt seem all that bad. "I just got a little out of control. This time will be different"
I found that I needed more than just bad memories to keep me from taking a drink. So far I have found nothing as effective as helping other alcoholics.