That's a big step for anyone. I cried through my first meeting and I was terrified. Over the years I've been to hundreds of meetings and the thing that worked for me was getting a sponsor and actually working the steps to the best of my ability. It isn't for everyone but it works for me. I feel a part of something bigger and better than the alcohol. I feel like I have friends and family there. I even relate to other women differently because of AA. Keep going back!