My struggle became my identity too. which basically means that I lost my identity in the struggle for quite awhile. It is very painful. Digging ourselves out when we are in that deep is a long long road. For those reading that haven't been in too long...don't let it go on years and years....it will eat your identity up, and you will have a hellofatime finding your identity again. What a slippery slope....
Thanks for sharing that, and I hope you don't have to act that happy face at all...that life surprises you with bursting out laughing a few times naturally tonight during dinner!