i'll be honest, it took more than once to quit..... (same with cigarettes)....put it logically, i was tired of being the stupid one in the family. my mother was dying and my poor brother was doing the majority of the work...that was so wrong. I think we all have it within us to do the right thing, and if you can't handle drinking like a normal person, you need to stop.
i've had plenty of mistakes and a few weekend hangovers before i stopped entirely. but I never fell all the way back down. (19 months and counting sober.....regular drinking for 10 years and heavy drinking probably the last 12 years, extremely heavy drinking the last 3 years).
you do what you need to...i was suffering and depressed. I know i'm not a maschocist, the only one who could stop me was ME. and I don't make a career out of my addictions. they don't deserve that much space in my pointy little head.