Even though I knew what would likely happen
You made a choice, not the best one, but that's ok, it happens.
Today is the next greatest day of your life and the big plan!!!!!
The voice of the beast is a loud and strong one. But we have to learn how to tame and control it. Not an easy task many times. But you did it the day before right?
So you know you can.
The feelings are just that, feelings. They are not permanent nor are they a simple thing to deal with in early recovery. But we have to learn, little by little, that the feelings are part of a sober life.
We can't run from, or drink them away any more. We need to feel them and accept them and move on.
Just remember, the only thing that has changed is your sobriety date.
Stay strong, you'll beat the beast and find true happiness in doing so.