I am stuggling. As I was caught drinking at work, I found out I am to go through a disciplinary hearing / court type process and Im petrified.
I realise its all fine and dandy to be a non-drinker on a normal day but when you get hit with stressful scary news, "it" takes over, becomes my "friend" and I have drunk or taken drugs so long I dont have any other tools in my box to deal with these emotions.
I must learn some. Im scared of losing my job, my accomodation, and my reputation is up sh*t creek. I want to drink (sorry, IT wants to drink).
Or more accurately I dont want to feel this pain / fear etc.