The name choice actually DejaVu is one of my favorite songs on recovery. Has a lot of helpful lines that I've memorized and would have to think about. It's also a feeling that I've been here before, several times over, Tired of the cycles.
I felt the monster when thinking about drug use but no matter what I do when it comes to alcohol my monster doesn't seem to care. I was around whiskey and wine coolers Saturday night ... was offered some. Happily declined without a whisper in my head that suggested I should've had some. I'm aware it's there somewhere. Kinda wish it wasn't so hidden... feel like it's plotting haha.