I have a few days off coming up and I have chosen this time in order to handle withdrawal, have arranged support. The beast will never be ready I know, but in the words of Colin Hay, "Im waiting for my new life to begin".
This sounds weird but Im actually "enjoying hating" drinking. The Beast still loves it. But "I" have become more aware since reading the book how disgusting it is, and I hate being chained to it.