The concept of never
As has been posted here, the concept of never is hard to grasp in the beginning. I am sure all new comers have struggled a bit with this. I have been focusing on the now and of course I say never again, nor will I change my mind. But it is still a very hard concept to grasp.
Today while I was driving I was able to breifly envision never and what it meant. It was indeed a liberating feeling but it was somewhat fleeting. I can't say that I have fully grasped it quite yet, but it was interesting to catch a small glimpse of it. Then I thought of future major life milestones and caught my AV creep in and start to try and say "well maybe then it will be ok". I identified it and dismissed it.
For now I am focused in the "now". As I will not drink in the now.
Has anyone else felt this?