Hi Bingegirl
Like others have said, I think you already know the answer to your question...?
some of us just can't control it - no matter how good our intentions are, once we introduce alcohol into our system all bets are off....we change.
I'm sure your friends are well meaning but unless you've experienced that reaction for yourself I don't think you can't really understand what it means not to have control.
There are many many of us here enjoying great lives without alcohol
It's meant a lot of changes for me from the way I used to live, but it's been worth it
welcome to SR
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