Hiya BingeGirl
I tried to moderate for 18 months and failed. Each binge getting worse. I chose to go to AA and seek help. I am on 20 days and feel much less tortured when I go out.
Only you can decide but for me, I tried and failed at control. I am powerless over alcohol!
Why don't you try 60-90 days of drinking nothing and see how you feel?
S x