djayr, I understand where you are coming from seeing I've been where you are standing. I divorced my x over a year ago and a half, we had been married for 39 yrs and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. 6 months after the divorce he was already in end stage alcoholism but he stopped drinking and I truly believe if we were still together he would still be drinking. I think he got to his bottom and realized he was the only one who was going to take care of him. Take care of yourself and know there is life after divorce.