I have talked to him but he thinks He can handle me. I want to please him and make him happy and not make our marriage difficult so I just go along with things? I dont know how to get out of this cycle! Im afraid of hurting our marriage but Im so tired of struggling!Its too hard, I dont know how to make a commitment and stick to it no matter what! Blaming everything on others! Its me! I was disfuntional from the start and how am I ever going to change, to stand up and not quit? I dont have what it takes! I thought God would do something to me to help me... How can I ever pray for anyone or say Im a christian. Idk.... I just dont know how Ill ever change, I hate myself!