Welcome to SR ashamed. I'm glad you've made the decision to have a better and healthier life. I wish I'd seen what I was doing to myself before my world turned upside down.
I once was able to claim all the things that you do - no morning drinking, missing work, etc. Over the years my tolerance for alcohol grew, though. I used to feel high and happy with a drink or two. In the end, I was drinking all day. I never dreamed such a thing could happen to me. Glad you are seeing that things need to change - and are taking control.