PerhapsLove--here's a big mama hug for you, honey. So sorry for your pain. It is so mean & intense how we have to grieve their potential death as intensely as the real one--perhaps as a way to deal with the complete lack of control we have over the outcome? I think it is very wise and cathartic of you to make some kind of plan for her funeral. I think it will help you work through your sadness in a practical yet spiritual way. Even if you just write down what you'd like to do, I bet it might alleviate some of the sorrow. Let me know!
My heart goes out to you--in my prayers, I will ask that your grief is lifted, and that you will be graced with all the strength you need. Keep taking care of your heart and soul in as many ways as you can. Keep in touch with us here. And get yourself some flowers...
