"Will I ever feel "normal"?
A question I keep asking myself also sometimes when it's a difficult time. But when I think logically about the fact that I had my bad habbits for 20 years I accept that it will take a while to feel "normal". Think about it for a minute and imagine, no alcohol or Nicotine for the next 5 years. Just healthy food, excercise, healthy lifestyle etc.
Then you drink a 12-15 beers and a pack of smokes in one night... Hospital time! LOL!